Reinvention

It’s kinda wild to start from scratch.  To have a blank slate and to just get to create a life.  We are once again at the bottom of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs.

The gift of the past five years, is that we’ve already worked our way up through the pyramid.  We were stripped of everything and what we built felt like the truest version of ourselves.  Mostly because the same themes from our life kept reappearing.  But also because we got to try things and see they weren’t right.  And try other things and say: “Oh, there I am.” 

When we moved back we started with needing a house.  This felt hard because I kept searching for OUR home - but I couldn’t find it.  Yes, inventory is low, but none of them felt quite right for us.  I guess the thing is when you know yourself so well, of course you can’t find a home that is uniquely you, because it hasn’t been created yet.  So we landed on one with the right bones and our plan is to design it.   As I sit here and make mood boards, PPTs and plans, it all comes from the heart because the vision is so clear.  

Then we needed two cars.  To watch Steve drive off in his new Honda just felt so amazingly him.  It was almost comical how beautiful of a moment it was.  Hybrid.  Dark Gray.  Lots of tech.  Funny how a Honda can feel like romance - especially after three months of courtship.  And me in my 2016 Hyundai, with a giant panoramic sunroof that I snagged days after we arrived.  The MN version of a convertible - relaxed, easy and perfect for adventuring.  My car while waiting for my EV plug-in to be available without a years long list and for us to install solar panels on our new roof.  

The kids get to rebuild too.  Recreating their friendships.  Reinventing their space. Finding the afterschool activities that feel right, not because it’s what their best friend does, or what’s cool - but because it is what they want to do.  I love how Anders’ hair swings while playing guitar and how he tucks it into his cap for swim team tryouts.  And I love how Chase looks in the mirror with his short hair spiked so confidently declaring that rock climbing club and parkour are for him.  They are discovering themselves and it’s beautiful to watch them blossom.

And now with such core foundational pieces of the pyramid set, it is time for me to work my way up to the next level. To find my new job.  Watching all those years of heartfelt agency work, marketing consulting, yoga teacher training, design thinking and coaching create a magic spell.   I’m excited to behold the witchy wonders of the world play out.

Because I get to reinvent me.  

We get to reinvent us.

It sounds thrilling.  And scary.  And it kinda is.  

All of us. This reinvention.